INTO THE LIGHT.....

Chris Assaad.

INTO THE LIGHT: 

I used to be afraid of the dark 
But now I know it’s not so hard 
To see the light, it’s all around 
So I’ll be lookin’ out when you’re lookin’ down. 

Brother, if you need a helping hand 
Someone you can call to take a stand 
I’ll be there by your side 
As you walk out of the darkness 
Into the light. 

Don’t let anyone tell you it’s too late 
To get where you’re going, to make a change. 
You’re not alone, 
I’m right here with you 
And there’s so many of us, 
Just trying to make our dreams come true. 

Sister, if you need a helping hand 
Someone you can call to take a stand 
I’ll be there by your side 
As you walk out of the darkness 
Into the light. 

Oh… You know the sky is big enough for all the stars 
I don’t mind sharing the light with you 
And maybe we could even learn a thing or two 
I know I’m at my best when I’m with you. 

Brother if you need a helping hand 
Someone you can call to take a stand 
I’ll be there by your side 
As you walk out of the darkness 

Sister if you need a helping hand 
You know I’ll be there to take a stand 
As you walk into the light. 

Into the light…(and I’ll be there). 
Into the light…(and I’ll be there). 
Oh…(and I’ll be there) 
As you walk. 

Just call on me if you need a hand…(and I’ll be there). 
Oh into the light…(and I’ll be there). 
Oh yeah…(and I’ll be there) 
As you walk.

Christmas Love

Christmas Love means:

Glorious chaos on Christmas morning with Mya squished right in there, chewing on her new rawhide that Santa left in her stocking:

And some "Solo" Beatz by Dr. Dre for the big guy(:

And Max maybe 9 but he still loves to snug-a-bug with his stuffed animal friends, Santa gave him a new teddy bear from Buid-A-Bear:

A pink guitar made this little Bella girl smile and she has been rockin' out ever since,  next...guitar lessons for my little rockstar mama!

A special canvas picture, from Canvaspop for Big Daddy, with pics from our crazy Disney trip!!!

LOL, look at Mya's nose...at the bottom, sniff sniff, she's checkin' it out!

Christmas Love also meant celebrating sweet Becca's 3rd birthday and remembering Becca and Samantha's grandmother Barb ( my Auntie Barb), so tough to be without her this year.

But Becca made us all smile with her sweet red Christmas dress on!

And my angel baby Godson is all Love, with his puppy dog hat on:

Christmas Love xoxoxoxo

Thank you for all the blessings.

Amen.

Merry Christmas!!

Gone but never forgotten...Ever!

 Saturday, December 15th, 2012, I got the call from my brother, that my dear Godmother our Auntie Barb, who has been with me my whole life, had left us to go to heaven.  And though, she faught the toughest,most painful fight ( pancreatic cancer) for 9 months, and though she suffered and was in alot of discomfort and pain, especially this past couple months, you never want to say goodbye to someone you love so much.
Yes, we wanted to take away her pain and yes we prayed for her to be in peace but  we much rather her to be in peace here on earth with us. It's so hard to let someone you love go. Even though you know they are going to pure peace, love and joy in heaven with Jesus, it still makes us all left behind on earth feel so sad and empty and full of grief and loss.
Every Christmas Eve,  my Godmother and my cousins  would come for dinner and laughs and my brother dresses up as Santa and brings the children presents and my cousin Matthews's birthday is on December 24h, so Auntie Barb would always buy her son a birthday cake and we'd sing and laugh and take pictures and be together.
We are really going to feel her loss in 4 days on Christmas Eve.
And my heart aches for all the babies taken in the school shooting, for all the daughters, who tried with all they could to protect those precious children from the shooter.  The all stay in my heart and I cry for all of them, gone too soon and so tragically.
Christmas is not the same this year.
I often play the song "Where are you Christmas" from my girl, Faith Hill... Because it really fits this years Christmas season.
I find peace in music and I find peace in prayer.
I cherish the memories with my dear Godmother, I try to let the angry feelings wash away with all the tears I cry...the anger for cancer and the anger for precious lives taken so tragically.
I try to embrace
the LOVE beacause God is Love
and
LOVE is GOD
and
we can only go forward if we realize LOVE.
7 Christmases ago, Auntie Barb was  blessed with her first granddaughter, Samantha.
And here is a picture I cherish so much, of me holding my Bella and
Auntie Barb holding her Samantha, on their first Christmas.

Oh how I wish she could still be here to see how amazing Samantha is in first grade with her cousin Bella.
She misses her Grandma so much and isn't ready to talk about her just yet.
I pray in time she will, so we can share all the wonderful memories and pictures of her Grandma with her.
Merry Christmas, Auntie Barb.
I love you and miss you so much.
Xoxoxoxoo
I will be speaking at her memorial service this Saturday and how appropriate is the Proverb I will be dedicating to my Auntie Barb:

Hold each other.....

Our country is grieving. Each child who has been slaughtered belongs to each of us and each slain adult is a member of our family. It is impossible to explain the horror to ourselves and to our survivors. We need to hold each other’s hands and look into each other’s eyes and say, “I am sorry." ~Maya Angelou

God help us throught this...

This is the whole country's song today, the whole worlds song really...
We are all grieving.
We are all in pain and disbelief.
It's devastating and more so because Christmas is next week.
How do we shine when there is so much darkness around us today.
I am praying and loving with all my might.
I am crying and holding my children even more and just staring at them even more and taking in their happy smiles and pure innocence....
Once again,
there is no way around it,
just through it,
all together with LOVE.
LOVE
IS
GOD
GOD
IS
LOVE.
This song seems like the only approriate soong to listen to today....
God help us through this devastation and loss.
God help the families who lost their loved ones yesterday in Newtown, Conn.
Amen.

I'll be your soldier....

My cousin's mom....aka my Godmother is dying...she is very sick with pancreatic cancer and doesn't have much time left here with us.
It is the most heartbreaking experience to watch someone you love, someone who has been so much apart of your life, just wither away in front of your eyes...it's unfair, it's unexplainablely sad and I just want my cousin Melissa to know that I am here for her, I am by her side, I am never leaving her side and I will forever be her soldier...strong and brave and always with open arms to hold her  especially on these most tough heartbreaking days....xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Soldier...