one love: 2014

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

INSPIRED>..BY..RYAN&HIS..MOM.

I..haven't.blogged..in..a..long..time….one.reason…noone..even..reads..it…lol..another…reason…im..a..busy..mama..who…finds..time..to..post…to..facebook&instagram…lol…so…when..I..get..on..my..little..old..blog..and..read..back..I..am..happy..I..did…post..//what..I..posted…my.14..year..old..sons…smilebox..video…that..he..will..not..see.or..appreciate..until..he..is…40..god..willing!!
I..also..have..a..broken..spacebar..so..it..kind..of..sux..to..have..to.dot..dot..between..every..word…but…i..will..do..it…and..get..through..it!!
I…am…absolutely..inspired…and..in..awe…of…Moms…who..have..suffered..the..most..unimaginable..loss…ever…the..loss.of.their..child..their..baby…their…everything..their…world..their..heartbeat…and..yet..they..are..still..breathing…that..right..there..is…amazing…from..one..mom..to..another..mom…when..a..mom…loses…her..baby…we..all.lose..with..her…and..what..we…must..do..is..all..hold..onto..eachother…because..that..is..all..we..can..do..keep..holding..on…every..second..every..minute..of…everyday…I..just..want..to…say…though…i…don't..know…Ryan's…Mama…I…love..you..and..I..pray..and..think..of..you..your..hubby..and..precious..Ryan…everyday..You.will.always..be..in..my..heart…#REDBALLOONSFORRYANFOREVER!!!

my gold bracelet

Tuesday, December 04, 2007
my gold bracelet
yesterday
was Jordan's school Christmas shopping fair
and so he got to shop for his family
he came home from school so excited and proud of the gifts he had
he made sure we opened them right then and there
for Max, he gave a set of cars, Max hugged him like it was the best gift in the world and said "bank you Jordan" (thank is bank)
for Bella, a little box of "pretty" (as she calls them) hair barrettes, and she
said "for me"....she's cool...too funny
and then he practically opened my gift for me,
and inside that litte rectangular box was 3 gold bracelets, shining so bright
right from the CHristmas Tree Shop store,
"all this for 8 dollars" was what he told me,
he was so proud
and though mama doesn't love the gold, now i do.
he asked me to wear it and of course I have been wearing my gold bracelet ever since, well i take it off at night when i take shower, cause we don't want no
green around the wrist but
just knowing he thought of me, his mother
and his brother and sister,
touches my heart
when someone thinks of you,
it makes you feel like you matter,
and not one human being can deny that feeling, it's so true
and so important to feel validated in life.
Plus
Jordan
is
getting the true meaning of Christmas
every year as he grows he learns and understands that
it's all about the giving....
it always has been and it always will be..
i love you, Jordan.
i thank God for giving me you everyday....