ch...ch...changes

Isn't
that
what
life
is
really
all
about?
Changes....
How we change through the years from our minds, to our hearts, to our bodies, to our lives.
People change, situations change, our faces will change.
And change can be bittersweet.
I came across some photo albums in my sons closet tonight and got swept away looking back to the old days...
The old days of my pink polaroid camera and when my black dog, my beautiful black lab Sammi was so young and she had a black shiny coat of fur and endless energy.
The old days of thinking nothing of splurging on lots of clothes for myself at the mall and racking up the credit card but knowing I could pay it right off with my weeks paycheck from the law firm.
The old days were without stretch marks and flabby stretched out baby belly.
The old days were the nails being filled every 2 weeks and going to the nail salon and they'd say "hi kristin, pick a color" and pedicures too.
The old days were being able to afford MAC makeup whenever I wanted too and having late night conversations in my cozy bedroom at 6 Mill St. Place, on the phone with big daddy when he use to live in Boston with his mama, Zonia.
The old days, I was the tae bo queen and had toned legs to prove it. You couldn't stop me then!
And then ch...ch...changes....
but they are the 3 best changes ever to be in my life.
Jordan, Maxwell & Isabella.
So yes, I have had to let go of alot of selfish indulgences but to hear their little voices say "mama, no matter if you are fat or skinny, i still love you" (that was Jordan who said that to me not so long ago) or when i give Bella her dora sippy cup with orange juice in it in the middle of the night and she says "thanks, mama" half asleep or when Max says in his husky little voice, really just about anything...it makes all the ch..ch..changes make sense and so very worth it.
So we have to accept the changing (the good along with the not so good), the growing (the aging, those darn wrinkles), & the years that inevitablilty go by, but just try to always see the glass half full...that is what I do daily, a very special person taught me that when I was a little girl and she also said "when you have lemons, make lemon aid" and I will always remember that on the days when ch...cha..changes are hard to accept or understand.
me & Jordan, he was almost 2 years old here

the long ago tae bo toned legs at my surprise party that me & jenny kind of planned ourselves and then i pretended to be surprised, remember that?