The Elvis Medley and LMFAO

Bella on the left, Jordan in the center(:

Bella rocked it out on the stage for her dance recital on Thursday, May 17th!
Her class did an Elvis Medley and rocked out to.."Tonight, Tonight, theres a party on the roof on top of the world!

Bella and her bff, Gianna cruising to Bella's dance rectial!!
Bella's bff goes to a different school, so they don't see each other as much as they'd like to, so Bella was super excited when she found out Gianna would be coming to see her dance recital and then out to Fuddruckers for dinner and Friendly's for ice creams ~ vanilla with rainbow sprinkles, of course.

Showing a sweet Elvis move before the big show!

Jordan and Bella aka Little Elvis Mama's!

And we can't forget that Big Daddy performed in the recital too! yes, he did, him and 6 other brave dads got on that stage and shook it down to "Im Sexy and I Know It!"   LMFAO style!!! and then they each danced with their baby girls to "Daddy's Little Girl"...so cute, so funny!!!

I Won't Give Up...

For my Godmother.

My Angel, My Mother.

My Angel, My Mother.

She gave me life.
She has guided me throughout my life.
We shop together, we go out to eat together, we take walks almost every night together ( it's like our little therapy sessions, we just talk, walk and listen to each other).
When we baked brownies or cakes together, when i was a little girl, she always let me lick the batter  ( a just a few times).
She goes by many names.
"Kaaz", is what her mom calls her when she yells downstairs for her.
"Ma" ~ "Mama" from my brother and I and my husband.
"Gigi" is what my kids call her, cause when I had my first born, she told me, she wasn't old enough to be called a Nana or Grandma, so we went with the hip name of Gigi.
"Mrs. Webb", is what all her kindergarten students call her, everyday for 20 years now!
And I also love to call her "Honey"and "Dear" and "Kaaz", too(:
She is so loving and warm, always gives the best hugs and always has her beautiful smile to share with the world. She always looks happy, friendly, approachable and she passed those three things onto me. Many people walk around looking very serious, sometimes downright miserable. That is not Kaaaz, my Mom has the most beautiful smile and she shares that with everyone.
She loves everyone, judges noone and has lived her life with an open mind.
I am proud to say, she passed all those wonderful characteristics onto me and my brother, as well.
When I was pregnant with Jordan at age 22, she embraced me and stood by me and inside I know, though  I was young, she believed in me and knew I'd be ok, plus I think deep down inside she was super excited to know she was going to be a Grandma, I mean "Gigi."
She bakes the best pizzelle cookies in the entire world!
And is there for us, especially my kids, anytime, anyplace.
She shows up.
She gets down and digs in the sand with her grandchildren.
She has taught them so much, how lucky are they to have a kindergarten teacher as their Gigi!
And she is an amazing teacher ( not saying it just cause she is my mom, ask anyone ).
Every June she gives her children, beautiful memory books, filled with pictures of them that she takes throughout the year, from their first day of school through the holidays & celebrations.  We will see kids she had 19, 20 years ago, who have their memory books and will never forget having "Mrs. Webb" as their kindergarten teacher.
She ROCKS!!
She freakin' ROCKS!!!

I love you, mama.

You are my heart and soul.
You light up our world.
Jordan, Max, Bella and me adore you!!!
We are truly blessed to have you as our Mama and Gigi.
Happy Mama's Day!!!
Thank you, God for giving us Kaaaz (:
Peace and Love, Baby!

This is an email, my cousin Missy sent to my Mom. My Mom checks in with Missy, Missy is Auntie Barbs daughter. Missy too has faught cancer, non-hodgkin's lymphoma just last year and she is now cancer free and taking care of her mom who is fighting for her life.

I saw my mother today and she wasn’t feeling that well.  She looked good – but this round hit her very hard, very quickly.  It’s because the body never got the chance to fully recover from the last round, and then they hit her again.  It will probably be worse next week, but then she will have one week off and she should feel good then.  She is not nauseous from food or the drugs, but I think from all the post-nasal that the chemo is causing.  It happened with me because chemo attacks all fast growing cells – hair follicles, mucus membranes, etc., which is why people get mouth sores, post-nasal, etc. during chemo.  So, she is having all that junk drain down, make her nauseous and throw the mucus up.  I told her to take something to dry it up (Claritin, her prescription nasal spray), but she is SO stubborn and “doesn’t want to take anything else.”  Well, if it is going to help you, take it – why be miserable?  So, she is really just wiped today.  I think over the weekend, she should start to recover and, hopefully, by Monday, feel good.  I have to make sure she eats on days like today because she is just sleeping and then I am working at dinner time, Matthew is useless, and she won’t ask for help if she needs it.  I had Joe go by and check on her – he gave her a pep talk and asked what she wanted to eat.  She mentioned that food tasted funny, but she wanted pancakes, so he went home, made the pancakes and brought them back and he said she was eating them when he left.  I will be back there tomorrow morning, so I will help her out with things around the house (whatever she will allow me to do, that is).  I just want to burst into tears when I see her laying on the couch like that – so heartbreaking.  I know today she wanted to give up – and I told her she needs to fight at least until the next scan (in June) and see what is going on.  We will use the scans as a “destination” – so it doesn’t appear overwhelming.  When she is having her good days (like yesterday), she is ready to fight, but I totally understand how the chemo wears you down physically and mentally.

She knows that you are there for her – but she also knows that you have the folks to take care of.  Call her on Monday or Tuesday and I’ll bet she will be up for talking your ear off!!  I keep hoping that one day I will see the two of you walking by the house again, on your way to the park in Everett. You and Kris have been so wonderful to us – she did offer her help and it is SO appreciated! 

Love you all so much,

Missy

Don't Give Up...

This weekend is Mother's day and I definitely want to blog about my awesome Mama.
 But today I must send this song out to my Amazing Godmother, who is fighting stage four pancreatic cancer.  We just found out this devastating news and it is still so so surreal to us.
It is so heartbreaking and unfair.
I just pray to God, God please don't let her suffer, please help her, please let her know how loved she is and how much we are praying for a miracle for her life.
I love you, Auntie Barb.
She has dealt with too much pain and loss in her life, she has lost her own mother to cancer, her husband to cancer and her own daughter has faught and beat non-hodgkin's lymphoma and this is not how life should be for her.
She is so strong and so kind and so selfless, she has two young granddaughters who so deserve to have her in their lives and now with this devastating news, we just don't know....
Please say a prayer.
It's all we have.
Love and Prayers.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, TO MY BEAUTIFUL GODMOTHER, Auntie Barb XOXOXOXO
This one is for you, Barb...( She loves Josh Groban)
"If I could I wish I could bring him to you, to hold your hand and sing this to you."
She asks for so little for herself and she deserves so much and God does she deserve to meet and have Josh sing to her. I remember when Oprah's best friend got to have Josh sing to her and it's funny, I love Gayle but again it's always special treatment for the celebrities, or ones who know a very famous celebrity ( aka Oprah) and I am so happy Gayle got to meet and have Josh sing to her but what about a regular human being, who is a mom, a widow, a strong woman who has watched and cared for sick loved ones, a true friend, a fighter, my Godmother, who is not sure how much time she has left here on earth who so deserves to meet and have Mr. Groban sing to her, just one song. She so deserves that!!
Josh, can you hear me? Will you come to Boston to sing to my Auntie Barb?
I will continue to Pray.
Love you so much, Auntie Barb...... xoxoxoxo

Margaritas ~ 540!

So tonight my hubby took me out to the "99" Restaurant  for  trivia night. Every Thursday night at our "99",  is trivia night....challenging questions...think trivia pursuit (and  to us those are challenging questions) and the winners get gift cards to the "99" and then they were giving away tickets to a Red Sox game. We were so hoping we'd win something but we lost again......it's ok, we had a little date night out and I managed to suck down 2 yummy margaritas...the bar tender was even sweet enough to put pink sugar on the rim of my glass.
 But then I felt crazzzzy guilty cause "Big Daddy" ( aka my hubby) googled on his phone how many calories were in a margarita.....
540 calories!!!!!!! Five Hundred and Forty!!!! I was like "Are you kidding me?"
He wasn't.
So after utter shock, I did what any chick on "WW" would do, I ordered me another one...and drank that one day and felt more guilty.
Then we lost the last round of trivia, got up and had to go by Target to pick up snacks for the kids lunches  for tomorrow!
So with much guilt for fallin' off the "WW" Wagon, I got home, checked on my babies, all snug in their beds ~ Thank You, Uncle Eric for watching them while we had trivia date night~
And then I got busy doing some hardcore JUST DANCE 3 on the Wii!!
30 mintuest... at 10:00 pm ~ to  10:30 pm to be exact.
Sweat.
Effort.
Thought.
And as my best friends mama, Georgia always told us: "Tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes."
That's right, Georgia.
No mistakes.
No margaritas.
No more feeling' guilty.
Tomorrow is a new day.
God Bless (:

Sweat. Effort. Thought.

Weighed in today for first time since I've began "WW" and I am happy to say I am down 3.8 pounds!!
It is day 9 and it's still on.  Just the fact that I am even on this program this long, is quite an accomplishment for me and I feel good. I am not going to lie, there are tough moments, there are moments of deep hunger but I get through them.  I just keep walkin'.....keep sweatin'.....keep at it day in and day out.
Sweat.
Effort.
Thought.

That is what it's all about.